Everytime I go back to BC for any amount of time, I wonder why I left. Seriously. It was an irrational decision that I thought made perfect sense at the time. No one I knew agreed with my decision and some of my friends (including my landlord of all people) even tried to talk me out of it. But I was stubborn. “I have no job. Gotta go where the jobs are,” I said. In reality, what I was thinking about was the approaching autumn, and being only a couple of years removed from my first tough year in Vancouver after five generally happy years in Victoria, the idea of going though a gross, wet winter by myself again did not sit well with me at all. The irony is that I wasn’t going to go through that by myself; I made some great friends and, unlike two winters previous to that, I did have some job prospects. But I panicked.
Now, Toronto is not as bad as I used to make it out to be, and I consider myself lucky to be a part of a progressive organization that respects me, for the most part, and I do like the idea of living where my favourite baseball team plays, and that has an amazing music scene, but when I come back from BC from spending time with my friends, it does make me feel lucky to have led such a charmed life when I lived there. I made friends that are positive and forward looking — and many seem to be going through major life transitions that are making their lives fuller and happier. And knowing that makes me happy.